For the past three months, I stepped away from painting.
It was not planned. It was not a decision I made lightly. It was something that happened quietly, as I found myself in a creative drought.
At first, I thought it was just fatigue. But as time went on, I realised it was something deeper.
I had been affected by what I was experiencing around me in the art industry. The environment felt increasingly driven by things that did not resonate with me. It often seemed more about money, trends, and connections than about the work itself. Who you know sometimes appeared to matter more than what you create.
There is a certain elitism that can exist, where access and opportunities feel controlled, and not always by the right reasons. It can be disheartening to witness and to navigate.
Along the way, I also encountered people and situations that were not good for me. There were moments of being misled, of feeling gaslit, of questioning my own instincts. These experiences took a toll, more than I initially realised.
Over time, the joy of creating began to feel clouded. And when that happens, forcing art is not the answer.
So I stepped back.
I gave myself space to rest, to clear my mind, and to reorient. To return to myself, away from noise, expectations, and external pressures.
During this time, I was reminded of something important.
Why I started painting in the first place.
It was never about trends, approval, or the industry. It was about expression. About connection. About the quiet joy of creating something meaningful.
This week, I find myself returning to art again.
Not because everything around me has changed, but because I have come back to what matters. I still love painting. I still feel something when I sit in front of a canvas. And that is enough.
The environment may not always be fair. There will always be things outside of our control. But what remains within our control is the decision to continue, to create, and to stay true to our own path.
Stepping away was necessary.
And now, returning feels right.
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